Friday 28 November 2008

Failure

What is failure?
Who determines that you are a failure?
What can you do to overcome failure?
At which point in life when you fail then only you can be considered a failure?
Is it during your younger years of education?
Is it during your teenage years of education?
Is it during your life after graduation?
Is it during your working life?
Is it when you break up with someone important in your life?
What happens when you failed in one of the above period in life?
What happens when you failed in all of the above in life?
What will you do in order to continue on the next step in life?
So many questions arise about this topic yet no answer is certain.
After so many questions i raised above, is there even such a thing such as failure?
Well in my opinion NO one in this world deserves to judge us as failures.
Not our parents, siblings,teachers, bosses, friends, loved one or anyone besides you and only you yourself. Think about it..this is your life and what you do is all depends on you.
So what if you did failed at any point in life?
So what if you didn't make in through high school?
So what if you had been rejected by any organisation be it educational, the working sector or even in a relationship?
It all comes down to you and you yourself.
There are so many obstacles in the walk of life.
When you did badly in something, there will be many people who will try to halt your progress in life so that they themself will be able to rise to the top.
If you give up on yourself, you will only comply to the person's desire to see you fall.
Who doesn't want to rise to the top?
Who doesn't want to succeed in life?
My friends, life is all about success and only those who succeed will be able to achieve happiness and share those happiness with their loved ones.
Now the question is
"Will you give up along the way and let all the runners get by you in life?",
"Will you let others look down upon you in the social life hierarchy?" ,
"Will you let those who you love live in poverty?",
"Will you allow your loved ones to be taken care of others because you do not possess the ability to give the best to take care of them?"
Well i believe we all know what the answer for this and no further elaboration is needed for this.
So get up when you fall down!
No one in this world was born on top at the peak of success.
We only got one and only one life.
And you, yes you are the only person who decide how you are going to live this.
Choose to be always be kicked down and cry in the corner or stand up and face the coming challenge head on and get to the top.
And remember there is no such thing as failure!

Thursday 27 November 2008

Car Progress after Crashed





When My Car get out from Workshop? -.-"
Is being 2 weeks my car send to workshop.

Just Share Share with You all....*Speechless* + *Heart Pain*

Found Your Soulmate?


Soul mate..
Is there such a things as soul mate in this world? Do you think that god had already arranged a person for everyone in this world? Or must each and everyone of us must work hard to find the most suitable and compatible person in our life? Can you say that if a couple finally married, they have found their soul mate? Then how can you explain divorce cases that follows after that?

Humans are very complicated beings. Why u may ask? This is because of one thing which also makes us unique and special as well which is FEELINGS. Feelings for someone can be so special at times but it could change just like that. When this happens, the situation will turn ugly. breakups will happen,argument arise, backstabbing occurs,betrayal from the relationship all will happen.

But who can we really blame? Can we blame the person who's feelings change? Is there any logic that can control feelings? Of course there is no way to control them. Well at 1st I really do not understand why do people always betray their partner in a relationship, having 3rd party, having affairs and etc..but now I finally understand.

Hence I do not blame anyone for this. Its just who we are as humans. So in my opinion the word soul mate does not exist in this world. As sweet as the word may seem, this word is same as the word FOREVER. As much as we want every sweet moment to last forever, it doesn't.

The world is a cold place.That is why finding a right partner in life is the best achievement anyone can ever have.To be honest.There is still some part of my heart that believes there is someone out there specially made for every single soul. Will the person ever arrive? Only time can tell...

Wednesday 26 November 2008

The Perfect BOYFRIEND

Well, this is a topic that had been in debate for quite some time.
Is there such a thing as a perfect BOYFRIEND?

Well, if you encountered the question the 1st time, I know that most of the people will say that there is no such thing as a perfect person in this world. Agreed?

Well, its true that there is no person that is perfect.
So let me rephrase back the topic above so that others will get a better understanding of the case.

What I am trying to emphasize here is that not trying to be perfect but just to try the best to make sure that the relationship comes to a success. I believe all girls will want to marry the best man that she can find in life right? Even guys will try to marry the best girl that they can find.

Hence from what I had observed throughout my life, that those who knows how to get in a relationship and maintaining it is the best. Many people are just able to get in a relationship but maintaining it is not achievable, that is where you hear many break up stories out there.

From what I had heard around, especially from friends and experienced people is that characters that a girl looks for in a man are, charisma, career, financial, confidence, independent, sense of humour, romance and the heart it self.

There are many points that I can see above and researching them will take some time.
Hmm..I guess thats what makes it interesting. Well got to go now.
More updates later on.
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Stay tuned

I'm Tired


Life is so tiring, don't you think so? As working person, we have to work 8 hours a day just to get payed at the end of the month. As a student, we had to study, do assignments and sit for exams to earn that pointer to pass the certain subject. You see, its a never ending procedure which happens everyday once dawn break till the sun sets in.By the time you wake up in the morning, it starts all over again.

It seems that we are bounded by this routine which happens everyday in our life. we are all like trap in a rat race running in circles doing the same thing over and over again. Some of us even got used to this routine till they are immune and do it until the very day they close their eyes. This keeps me wondering, "is life really that boring and tiring? Is there a certain way out of this tiring maze?"

Last night, when I was sitting down alone pondering on this, I came to a conclusion that instead of doing the same thing everyday which everyone does, I need to do something different or else I would end up being trapped like them forever in this rat race. It would be endless doing the same thing over and over again. Already this is tiring me. 15 years of studying and almost 5 years of working brings me to a stand which concludes that what I am doing now is never ending.hence a solution must be thought and it must be thought fast.

What must I do differently from others that can get me out of this race? Why are others not doing it? Why do they choose to remain here? What will happen if they fail to do what they wanted? Are the consequences really that bad that they decide to just stick with a job? all these questions continue to flood my brain as I give this thought a while to explore my mind. I know time is almost up and I need to act fast now. The time is now.

the race of life is just about to begin and I am still here at the starting line, unsure on where to go.i know I must be doing something differently but do not know what. That's the only problem that i have now. well, tonight I will have to continue my daily routine as well. it can't be helped because I haven't found a way out of this mess.

I guess its OK to continue working as for now. times are tough right now and I know that having a job is already considered a blessing. Although this job is very tiring both mentally and physically, it earns quite a good amount for my age and academic qualification at the moment. But this is not what I am satisfied with, as I am going to find my exit out of this rat race. You just wait and see~

Moving On



Looking left and right, back and forward
Sitting still quietly watching time past by
Everything seems to be moving so fast
But yet we choose to sit there not moving a muscle

We know that there are deadlines to meet
Chores to be done, things to be completed
There seems to be so less hours in a day
Seconds seems to move faster every time we look at time

Everywhere we go we see people running fast
Some stop by the side walk panting,catching their breath
Some continue to run with all their strength
Running to reach a finish line in life

Though the road is long and winding,
We still run to complete every task in life,
The obstacles that we encounter leaves scars on us
Reminding us of how we got past the nemesis

Its normal for us to sit down quietly at times
Reflecting back on what we had done and where we're headed in life
Its alright to stare endlessly in the deep blue sky
and find yourself the courage to move on...

Before and After Marriage



I am sure many of you know as the saying goes, everything were very sweet when it was dating times. However after marriage, things are not as romantic and sweet as before.

There may be some truth in that statement, but i came across a very interesting method they put it. Maybe i shall share with you all on this. Its just a simple conversation between a couple before and after marriage.

Before marriage.....

He: Yes. At last. It was so hard to wait.
She: Do you want me to leave?
He: No! Don't even think about it.
She: Do you love me?
He: Of course! Over and over!
She: Have you ever cheated on me?
He: No! Why are you even asking?
She: Will you kiss me?
He: Every chance I get.
She: Will you hit me?
He: Are you crazy! I'm not that kind of person!
She: Can I trust you?
He: Yes.
She: Darling!

After marriage....
Simply read from bottom to top.

GoodBye...My 1st Property in My Life



Finally, I signed the Sales and Purchase Agreement yesterday.
How many signatures I had signed? oh... I think around 30++ Signatures.

My 1st property in my life is just so short period..6 months? -.-"

Who I selling to? I selling my 50% shares to her.
This also meant.. I'm gonna homeless and should seek for new place.
Total time frame for house to completely belongs her is after 3-4 months.

Good Bye... My 1st property..
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KIPARK MAS 1 Townhouse


Sunday 23 November 2008

Sunday Activity: 钓虾记


*Tiring Look*

Ah... Tiring day.. Anyway, I enjoyed my SUNDAY!

Was only slept 2 hours plus and got a call from ricky in early morning.
I Wanted to sleep more!!! Please give me 1 hour more to sleep.. but then who know he came to my place after half n hour -.-"

Stupid....

I Washed my face and rushed out for breakfast at pandan indah "poh poh pan mee" and also bought 2 pan mees for shandy and kinki...then direct send to their office and walked around Great Eastern Mall...

Is only 1 something... so we decided to try out the prawn fishing at bandar baru ampang which nearby ricky's shop.

Eish..!!! got nothing at first 15 mins..and the worker put more prawns in the pool..
Those prawns like got free from prison and swim towards us..
*Ricky played CHEAT* he catch some of them to the net.
Wahaha...cannot tahan what ricky did!

Too bad... too many players around and we played for 2 hours there...

This is the Commodities victory:


Not as much as I expected (-.-)"

But I enjoyed...

Saturday 22 November 2008

心里话

不知怎么的。。
总觉得,最近身边的朋友都很烦恼。。
各自有各自的烦恼。。

就好比如:金钱,工作,家人,情人。。。等等。。

凡人凡人。。人一出生就是满身的烦恼。。不然就不是凡人了。。
看开点吧。。我把人生看得很淡了。。。
我不要求什么。。。

我渴望一个快快乐乐。。简简单单。。 无忧无虑。。的人生!但是,现实很残酷 :(

我之前过的好不快乐,就因为有太多太多的顾虑。一路来,只是想到家人,朋友的。。从没为自己想想。。
现在,我要为自己先。。不要再辜负自己。
做我喜欢的。。。想要得。。。
朋友们。。我们加油加油吧。。。

Friday 21 November 2008

感言- 一些

生气是拿别人做错的事来惩罚自己

发光并非太阳的专利,你也可以发光

愚者用肉体监视心灵,智者用心灵监视肉体

获致幸福的不二法门是珍视你所拥有的、遗忘你所没有的

贪婪是最真实的贫穷,满足是最真实的财富

你可以用爱得到全世界,你也可以用恨失去全世界

人的价值,在遭受诱惑的一瞬间被决定

真正的爱,应该超越生命的长度、心灵的宽度、灵魂的深度

爱的力量大到可以使人忘记一切,却又小到连一粒嫉妒的沙石也不能容纳

不论你在什么时候开始,重要的是开始之后就不要停止

不论你在什么时候结束,重要的是结束之后就不要悔恨

抱最大的希望,为最大的努力,做最坏的打算

世上最累人的事,莫过于虚伪的过日子


用最少的悔恨面对过去
用最少的浪费面对现在
用最多的梦去面对未来
快乐不是因为拥有的多而是计较的少
如你想要拥有完美无暇的友谊,可能一辈子找不到朋友
你不能左右天气,但你能转变你的心情
好好扮演自己的角色,做自己该做的事

感言- 压力

压力压力压力!!!

难道就不能给我时间,给我机会么?
有些事是习惯性,不是说改就能改。
如果现今就如此苛刻,那往后的日子岂不是不堪设想?
总觉得我不再是我自己了
是我变得更好,变得更小心翼翼,更谨慎,懂得如何behave myself。
仰或,懂得如何营造更完美的自己,变得更虚伪,懂得什么叫委曲求全,entertain,懂得如何敷衍,油嘴滑舌来迎合他人的喜恶?

以前,
我就是我, 这样的我,这样的缺点。我想我做事必成。虽说是我行我素,但那始终是我,喜怒哀乐爱恶清楚分明。清楚明白要的是什么。目标设定必达成。

可是,
现在的我,却步步为营,说什么话,做什么事都得再三思考,小心翼翼,唯恐得罪八八六十四方。想做的事,还得事先为你我他和无尽的他们着想,把他们摆在天字第一位。因而牺牲小我,完成人人皆开心,唯我度泪吞的场面。常常得独自反省,怪罪自我不好,想太多,太自私,不成熟,自怨自艾。

好累。。。
已经不知道什么叫主见了。。

感言 - 伪装

小时候我都会幻想或认为这个世界很美好,很单纯的认为只要你付出了就可以得到相应的回报。

当我全心全意去付出我的一切,我所得到的都只是零。

因为在这个社会里的陷阱太多太多了,为了保护自己,我学会了伪装。

不希望任何人把我看得太透,明明就很在乎却装做无所谓,自己好像刺猬般全身长满刺,时时提醒自己不要陷下去,但偏偏自己学不会伪装。

因为每次都要压抑自己,所以把自己弄得好累好累。

现在的我都不知道什么是我值得去付出一辈子的了。

Thursday 20 November 2008

Communication among Couples

This topic was just like a "Ding" on my mind because of I saw my friend was like argue with his gf everyday? It might be... Anyway, here is my advices and hopefully can help you or all the readers out.



The movie “Lost In Translation” illustrates how we can get “separated” from our partners without never “departing” from each other. Communication problems are probably one of the most damaging problems that a relationship can face. Open communication sounds good, but in reality it is very difficult. The reason for this is that we do not want to be open, especially in the beginning of a relationship. Consciously or unconsciously, many people think that if we are real, other people are not going to like us.

In the book “Everybody's Normal Till You Get to Know Them,” the author, John Ortberg, points out some of the problems that we face and the price we pay for wearing a mask. The book is based largely on Christian philosophy, but it has a lot of good advice that can help all couples to deal with some communication issues and misconceptions that lead us trying to hide our real personality. Melina Kanakaredes attributes her great marriage to good communication. "You have to keep talking," she says.

How to deal with confrontation: We cannot escape confrontation, relationships are not perfect, and we must talk and solve our issues. Unresolved issues are potential time bombs in relationships.

How to negotiate: We all like to say that “Timing is everything,” but we do not practice it. We should air our problems, but we have to look for good timing to approach the other person and start a discussion if we want to solve them - and always watch out for the body language. If we only want to fight, any time is good. If we want to make things better, then, the timing and the words have to be carefully chosen. Communication among couples starts with understanding each other’s sensitivities.

If you are in an early stage in your relationship, perhaps, you want to show your true colors and not try to impress your partner by not showing the real you. This way you will know if you truly like each other or not. The same way give your partner a chance to be true as well, listen, and try to get to know her/him. A strong foundation is important so that a couple can communicate effectively.

It is difficult to show who we really are if we do not know it ourselves. This is the reason we wear masks that we do not even know about it. This is the reason why we have to be happy with ourselves in order to make a good couple. Take the time to get to know yourself and embrace and love who you are. This is a long journey and you do not have to complete it before you improve communication with your partner, but if you follow the simple tips of communicating as a couple, you will become a better communicator and a better lover.

Wednesday 19 November 2008

I Can Do It

Yes! Finally! I got a better mood today...
Weee...Wee...Weeee...
Throw away those shits behind...
And Move forward....Life is mine..I decide how to play with...If anything goes wrong I'll take my responsible... Not URS!!! Please don't trying to control me!



Thanks to Janet, Wayne, -aNn, Kinki...

Talked to them via Skype, Msn and Sms.. feeling better and mind set also different le...
I should look forward and solve the problems step by step..

Come on...Desmond! You Can Do It!!! You Can Do It!!! Don't Let people look down on you!!!

For Sure I'll Have a better life after today!
Cheer!!!!

Please please please... don't spoil my mood again... >_<

Tuesday 18 November 2008

eMo - 烦


很烦。。最近太多太多的事情发生了。。快要不行了。。透不了气。。

救命!!!

我要何去何从?我不知道!!!

我会不会选择这条路?

- aNn -

Why - aNn -?
Actually this is my ex-gf name. I felt so guilty to see her.. Why? Among all her Boyfriends... I think I'm the 1 hurt her the most...I leave her just because of my problem...I'm selfish..ok? I admitted!

I knew her since 18 - 19 years old?! and she 16...
I came over to kl for education...and she followed just for me.

"Silly" huh? It might be.. and I'm not qualified to give comment since a girl did this for me. Thank You -aNn.

She was actually knew me the most...my characteristic.. always understanding me..even until now. But I didn't appreciated what she did for me.. and I leave her alone after few months in kl.
I'm so sorry -aNn-

After seperated, I didn't contact her...until when I got problems.. and I appeared again.
What a suprise, She didn't hate me...she willing to become a listener.. allowed me mumbling on her...she even invited me to join her family for movie, lunch, and accompany me to kill my boring time.

Was felt so comfortable with her...I can shout out all my problems...seriously, Thanks a lot! -aNn.
After the day that hang out with her... I felt that she changed. Because of me? or who? Gosh.. I knew is me.

Sigh...I just got to know that.. she was wait for me to go back for a year...but I only appeared after 5-6 years...within this few years i wonder what she experienced until felt so sick of guys... LoLz... What the fuck?!

Relationship always hard to be last longer during young age... I think all the readers should be understand. Because we still don't know what we want actually...what is future? bla..bla..bla.. so on..

Right now. We became mature... We seem a lot... We experienced a lot...and We realised.....

-aNn - Thank You.. You'll be always in my heart...and Please don't so hard feeling on guys. I knew you can't believe guys anymore... :X oOoPs...

eMo - Depression

My soul cries out
I haven’t smiled in months
At least not a true smile
Just the one that makes my friends think you are happy.

Depression
-
is a dark hole in your heart it never leaves, it will always stay with you until you die.
is a fight you never win you try and try but some how you lose everything dear to you.
is a world were your stuck its so lonely.

you have no friends, no family, no air, you wish you could just die.
a pain that hurts you inside and outside.
-

What is Lonely?

Lonely is the Heart that never knows true love.
Lonely is the Body never looked on from above.
Lonely is the Mind that lost it’s will to dream.
Lonely is the Soul when no one hears it scream.

Lonely is the Heart that beats within the chest.
Lonely is the Body that soon lay down to rest.
Lonely is the Mind that has no place to go.
Lonely is the Soul that heaven does not know.

Lonely Heart, Body, Mind and Soul.

-From Wayne's Blog.... I'm totally Agree What he said...

eMo - 无法掌握得了

心情,若跌入回忆的轨道里,

不管是有意或是无意的,都无法掌握得了。。。

这世上,又有什么是我们能掌握得了的呢?

时间在转,朋友在换,去去留留,人怎能掌握得了?

eMo - 感言

如果你不爱一个人, 请放手.

好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你, 请放开自己,

好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的, 有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 . 但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的, 有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有, 但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了. 女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害, 我选择谎言;

如果谎言一种伤害, 我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害, 我选择离开.

如果失去是苦,你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦, 你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦,你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦,你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,

好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

eMo - Leavin' or Stayin'

A phone call again from mum last night..
Again, she mentioned all those I'm not willing to listen..
I'm freaking afraid to answer her call..
I don't know what I'm suppose to do..

Leavin'?
or
Stayin'?

Hell i know the answer! I DON"T KNOW!

If leavin' : A lot of things that I'm not bear to let go..
is feel like to start all over again..I'm so tired on this!!! FUCK!!! How can I just let go so many things? Talk is easy..but do is really hard for me! I can't accept this!
If Stayin' : I can't imaging what I'll facing.. *AM I a Coward?! I dunno*

I'm so down right now...my mind was so blank...
Filial...
Un-filial...

FUCK!!!
WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF I'M NOT IN THIS WORLD?!!!
WHAT SHOULD I DO?! PLEASE TELL ME!!!
AH!!! AH!!!! AH!!!!!

Maybe I'll choose to disappear / go somewhere, and no one can find me...

Monday 17 November 2008

eMo - Give Me a Breath




To my mama...

Please give me time to settle what is actually troubling me... I knew that u r actually concern me.. care me... worried about me.. but please... the way that u showing to me is just the way that always stresses me out!

Work! Money! Relation! House! ..bla bla bla.. all stressed me out.. Please don't add in Family!!!!

Sigh... i don't even know how to talk to u anymore...please no more leave kl, leave your job...or else i won't dare to answer your call...
I found myself can't just leave here like that...
Many reasons.. don't ask me why...

U like calling me everyday to ask me "how was this and how was that...Said I never listen what you said until SHIT happened!!!"... ah la... i can't breath anymore... killing myself is better than you mumbling at me..

Please Please Please !!!! Stop !!! Eish!!!!!

Dear God

Lord,

You promised that if I believed in You, You'd take care of everything in Your own way. But You repeatedly take away all the people and things I love in life leaving me with nothing but cold bitter feelings. How is it that You should expect me to come to you without any doubt, trusting Your ways? When You gave me all the things I never asked for, I was beyond thankful and grateful but with a swipe of Your hand, You just take it all back. How can this life You created be so cruel and harsh? Ive had my days of devoted worship, Ive had my fair share of hardship, but one strike and Im out? No warnings, no signs, no nothing. Someone You sent today asked me to whisper a prayer before I go to bed, just like old times. This is my prayer for today: *_ _ _ _ _ _*. Would You kindly ease me of all this pain and just guide me through this nasty day. And a prayer for the one You sent.

Amen.

Sunday Activities: Madagascar II, Quatto, Station 1, Ulu Langat Hill

16/11/08 Sunday

Is a colourful day for me... was busy for whole day...

woke up at 7am something and get myself prepared for movie... lolz... (so early!)

No la.. is not early at all... because i need drive to my ex-gf -Ann (6 years back) house located in sunway.
was reached around 8.15am. Her sister -Kim opened the door for me and her mum came down and said "Hi, how r u...didn't see u for some time"

Yea.. sure u all wonder why i go her place? I was actually followed them to cineleisure for madagascar II... is a free movie and sponsored by MCD. Her mum is working in MCD HQ...

Actually Felt weird to talk to her mum as so long didn't see her and wonder what she will think..
Fortunely, everything goes fine... and i fetched them to the destination, took bfast and went registration counter for tickets.. and start our movie..

The movie is ok...maybe i'm sleepy.. a bit can't concentrate on it..
Ah la.... i got a call and forced to leave 15 mins early before the movie end.. Is my family called as they reached kl already...
Said byebye to Ann...
drive all the way to sg. besi petronas to meet them up...
purpose they came is just want to see me and take some documents to me... but of course not so purposely came all the way just want to pass me the things.. is just because they need to went bangi to fetch my sister back to johor so they came further to visit me..

Well... i just got the documents and some chit chat with them.. then they said wanna back already.. phew... luckily... or else my ears can't just rest... my mum kept mumbling on me.. ask me back to hometown.. no more kl.. Fuck.. i don't want ! sigh... too many things happened...

After them, i sms to Ann whether movie is end and thanks for da movie from her mum..
Suprise...She asked me to join them to Avenue K for lunch... i was reject her cause of felt paiseh la... -.-" like a family lunch like that... she said is her mum asked 1... if don't believe them she'll just pass the phone to her mum... lolz.. ok ok .. sure i went lo...

Had a great lunch in Quatto, Avenue K... but sorry ya.. i didn't take any photo from there... foods is ok..giant size...price also not cheap la..Walked around KLCC for a while... then Ann and me was back 1st...

Ouch... time is still early.. so we went to station 1 for yamcha and chit chat... talked a lot histories... her stuffs... my stuffs... i found that Ann was changed..

Well, i had a great day with Ann and her family... i send her home at 6pm something..
Once, Ann.. thanks for movie and the day..

A little mind set was changed in my mind towards Ann... don't know bad or good le.. LoLz...

Reached home around 8pm... and thought of can have a good rest...planned to sleep early... but... i got a called at 10pm++something..
Ricky, his gf, Ah B, His gf kept calling me for ulu langat hill for a drink... i was reject them once, they called second... third...
OK! ok! ok!!! i come!!!

Salute to them!!!

Anyway, i went to fetch Kinki before the destination...
Blow water there... eat some angin there... ah la... so tiring...
Stupid.. they all laughed at me on driving manual!!!

Ricky: " Oi yo.. manual car wo"
Shit!!! like i don't know how to drive manual!!! just didn't drive for 2 years ma!!!

Ah B: " Wa.. geng geng"
-.-" Fuck u ...

ah... finally, drink session is end at 1am... drive them to their car and fetch kinki home...
Tired!!!! ........ ZzZzZ

Anyway, This is the pictures i got before the movie start!

Wednesday 12 November 2008

eMo - Life -


Suddenly think of this topic when i drive back home alone during last night...while on the road to home, my heart & mind suddenly felt so lonely & helpless...

I'm asking myself...

- WHY I'm alone here?
- WHAT I want in my life?
- WHEN I can get through all the shit?
- WHERE is my future?

WHY Human Being can be so emotional?
IF human being without so many emotions, how would it be?

Sigh... From born to death is just a learning circuit.

Some humans passing through without any obstacle.
Some humans passing through with lots of obstacles.

Don't complain about this is so UNFAIR!
This is so called realistic!
Nothing is fair in this world!

If you want a better life? Pay your EFFORT!
If you want a simple life? then just don't care anything lo...
Depends what u want to be...

I want a better life... is time for me to change my life...I must achieve what i want.
so friends... what you want in your life?

Tuesday 11 November 2008

eMo - I'm Lost -


Don't know who I'm supposed to be?!
This Question was on my mind long time ago...
Was Felt so LOST ....LOST and LOST!!!

I'm a Damn LOSER!!! Eish!!!!

My mind right now is MESSY


Friends,



eMo - Homeless & Broke!

A CALL from bank yesterday...told her loan was approved for the house, but due to re-sales in 1 year, the loan gets 10k+ penalty... FUCK!!! like I'm a rich person! i also don't know how to pay!

YES... I'm happy that she get the house..because my burden of house can - out, but... this also mean I'm homeless soon...

i still didn't look for new place that I'll moving to.
Hmm.. where should i move to? Hell i know...Maybe just stay under the bridge like those BEGGAR?!

After a 30 mins... Another CALL from lawyer. Asked about the agreement of document. Who is paying the down payment, renovation, bla bla bla....too many things le..

how you want to give me the figures? by listing down 1 by 1? and mentioned who paid for this and that? HELL NO!!! I won't!!!

Like i know how to answer!? Holy Shit!!! i just wan a round figures.. i don't want thing so mess up!

Again, a question is pop up... who going to pay? she pay to me? i pay to her? sigh...

AHHHhhHHhhHHHhh!!!!!!!



This is my future!?!?


Monday 10 November 2008

eMo - Work -

Sigh!!!
WHY WHY WHY!!??
Was so stresses on work recently.
Was worked in a company for 6 months soon, 6 months is the probation period but seem like i'm not really performance within the period.
Ah... too many things happened...and make me can't concentrate on work at all!

What The Fuck!!!
I also don't know what is next!!!
I don't know what should i do!!!
My mind is so empty while i want to think!!!
My mind is so Messy while i don't want to think!!!

DAMN!!! I'M A LOSER!!!!



eMo - Relationship -


Got a msg from a friend last night.
He said his gf is playing suicide..
complained about he don't care her?!

Hey Girl, he is doing everything just right for u! don't u felt so?
WHY ur eyes never see? WHY your brain never think?

Ur bf is suffering on money & work. U should know that!
Some times please la..understand a bit!
He talked to u be4 but y u never understand?!
U just think what u want!
Hell no!!!!....

i talked to this guy many times for giving her times to learn, to change..
But i felt that HE WAS TIRED!!!

Friend: keep on like this is very dangerous on ur relationship..i also no comment to give anymore... tiring to give also.. u should think think what u need to do next..

Eish..!!!

Saturday 8 November 2008

Boring Night @ Station 1 (Setapak)


Ah... Such a Boring night... Nothing to do after a dinner with ricky..
Decided to call my colleague while driving back home for yamcha.
" Ring... Ring... Ring "
Me: "Wei Nothing to do le... go yamcha?"
Colleague: "ok la... how about station 1?"
Me: "ok, see u after 15 mins"
Yea.. finally can get a place to hang out to kill my boring night..
was felt so lonely after my "bad moment"..
Sigh...What to do...This is My Life!!!
Yuck!!! SUCK!!!
Reached Station 1... and so hard to get parking there...
Get a Nice Parking...and bring my laptop over for write my blog..
Too bad.. Speechless here....and order a bucket of beer...
Sigh....
Hopefully my life will not so boring / lonely again...
Cheers for New Life...
CHEERS!!!!

eMo - 朋友 -



什么是朋友呢?

互相利用?互相支持?还是。。。

回想以前的朋友。。还好象都是互相利用的。。

利用还是支持?
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比如:
出去。。没钱啊。。你sponsor我就陪你。。
无聊。。喂!很无聊啊!出来吧。。
考试。。不会啊!给我作弊啦!!!
感情。。我失恋了。。陪陪我吧。。
无助。。你帮我好吗?

等等。。。

你们想想。。你们的朋友当中。。哪些是帮你的。。哪些是利用你的。。?
在我的眼里。。朋友多不代表什么。。当你有事的时候,有谁会帮你呢?知己一个就够了。。当你有事,他可是第一个挺身而出。。

朋友。。不要让我太失望吧。。。好好的反省反省吧。。!!!

p/s: 我也要反省一下。。。 -.-"

Love at First Sight / 一见钟情

Again... Was think back few days ago... a girl was falling a feeling on me?
Oh my Oh my...SHOCKED!!!

Just saw her few times... didn't sms her... didn't call her... even like not talk to each other while met up..

But luckily... seem all fine at the end...just she think too much le ba...don't play play oh...

read an article about this again..let me share with u all..was not really understand on the article. Who can explain to me?!

Well, i'm trying to translate also.. but it just look weird after the traslation..
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Love at First Sight

Do you believe in love at first sight? Scientists study our brain activity and say that it’s quiet possible but everyone is free to believe or not to believe.

Some people claim that it happened to them and it was like you raise your head, meet those eyes and tell yourself “It is He/She!”. Psychologists say that love at first sight depends on our psychological state at the moment. In some case we won’t even notice those charming eyes in another they can make a lasting impression on as. Also they say that it takes about 30 seconds to fall in love or precisely speaking to estimate whether the person is worth to fall in love with. By the way psychologists claim that men fall in love first.

Very many factors act in the situation of falling in love from the first sight. These are our ideals, intuition or “fast logic”, imagination etc. When you fall in love at the first sight you are usually ready and willing to fall in love. Less possibility that it will happen if you are tired, stressed, solving problems in you mind. Of cause the main part in falling in love is given to the appearance, voice, gestures, smell. One person intuitively searches in the other the qualities and the feature to complete him/herself. Of causes beautiful people attract attention the most, but sometimes it’s wrong to fall in love with them easily because those people are experiencing much attention from the people of the other sex all the time and your delightful reaction may simply have no answers.

But if you suddenly fall in love with quiet unknown person and see that it’s mutual that may mean even that mother-nature has chosen a partner that genetically suits you a lot. In this case it is like “aha, match!” when someone happens to fill up all the necessary categories like “tall, blond, blue-eyed, looks good, has a style and nice manners, likes me”.

Still the cases when people really had fallen in love from the first sight and lived long and happily after that are rather it. You may dream of a beautiful stranger that waits for you just around the corner but it’s wrong to name every slight sympathy and interest to a person the love at first sight. Maybe you’re just a little tired of everything that surrounds you or trying to fill the emptiness inside, yet it doesn’t mean everyone who looks nice will do.

Sometimes it takes patience and time to find out the true nature of your feelings, mind that wonders do happen but not as often as we would like them too. If you suddenly have felt the wings behind you back still try to keep your feet on the ground because if it’s really love at first sight nothing will happen to it but if you’re taking illusions for reality falling back on the ground can be really hurtful.

By the way some theories say that we fall in love not from the first sight but from the first smell. Scientist claim that we pay much attention to what our eyes and ears tell us but on the subconscious level the way the person smells play a very big part in his or her expression on us although we don’t recognize it.

As always there’re as many opinions as many people. Each one has an equal right to exist because whatever the all those scientifically researches find out love still stays a sphere in which no one quiet sure in anything.

What is ♥ = LOVE?!

Was read an article... to explain what love is. What does u think?

What is love?

It is one of the most difficult questions for the mankind. Centuries have passed by, relationships have bloomed and so has love. But no one can give the proper definition of love. To some "Love is friendship set on fire" for others "Maybe love is like luck". You have to go all the way to find it. No matter how you define it or feel it, love is the eternal truth in the history of mankind.

Love is patient, love is kind. It has no envy, nor it boasts itself and it is never proud. It rejoices over the evil and is the truth seeker. Love protects; preserves and hopes for the positive aspect of life. Always stand steadfast in love, not fall into it. It is like the dream of your matter of affection coming true.

Love can occur between two or more individuals.
It bonds them and connects them in a unified link of trust, intimacy and interdependence. It enhances the relationship and comforts the soul. Love should be experienced and not just felt. The depth of love can not be measured. Look at the relationship between a mother and a child. The mother loves the child unconditionally and it can not be measured at all. A different dimension can be attained between any relationships with the magic of love. Love can be created. You just need to focus on the goodness of the other person. If this can be done easily, then you can also love easily. And remember we all have some positive aspect in us, no matter how bad our deeds maybe. And as God said "Love all ".

Depending on context, love can be of different varieties. Romantic love is a deep, intense and unending. It shared on a very intimate and interpersonal and sexual relationship. The term Platonic love, familial love and religious love are also matter of great affection. It is more of desire, preference and feelings. The meaning of love will change with each different relationship and depends more on its concept of depth, versatility, and complexity. But at times the very existence of love is questioned. Some say it is false and meaningless. It says that it never exist, because there has been many instances of hatred and brutality in relationships. The history of our world has witnessed many such events. There has been hatred between brothers, parents and children, sibling rivalry and spouses have failed each other. Friends have betrayed each other; the son has killed his parents for the throne, the count is endless. Even the modern generation is also facing with such dilemmas everyday. But "love" is not responsible for that. It is us, the people, who have forgotten the meaning of love and have undertaken such gruesome apathy.
In the past the study of philosophy and religion has done many speculations on the phenomenon of love. But love has always ruled, in music, poetry, paintings, sculptor and literature. Psychology has also done lot of dissection to the essence of love, just like what biology, anthropology and neuroscience has also done to it.
Psychology portrays love as a cognitive phenomenon with a social cause. It is said to have three components in the book of psychology: Intimacy, Commitment, and Passion. Also, in an ancient proverb love is defined as a high form of tolerance. And this view has been accepted and advocated by both philosophers and scholars. Love also includes compatibility. But it is more of journey to the unknown when the concept of compatibility comes into picture. Maybe the person whom we see in front of us, may be least compatible than the person who is miles away. We might talk to each other and portray that we love each other, but practically we do not end up into any relationship. Also in compatibility, the key is to think about the long term successful relationship, not a short journey. We need to understand each other and must always remember that no body is perfect.
Be together, share your joy and sorrow, understand each other, provide space to each other, but always be there for each others need. And surely love will blossom to strengthen your relationship with your matter of affection.


MADAGASCAR: ESCAPE 2 AFRICA

After the Madagascar... i was waiting this 2nd part until dying le... lolx.. Finally, this movie is up at 13th November 2008!!!
What is the story about for this escape 2 africa? hmmm... wondering ^____^
Well, wait me go watch 1st and i'll share with u all la...
Cheer....

P/S: I love disney cartoon!!!

More info on: http://www.madagascar-themovie.com/

updated on 24/11/08

as promised, my review is here...

I'm not really like this part 2.. but still ok la...story line ok.. but ending -.-" normal only..
I wonder how penguins can survived on africa.. LoLz...Well, Is an animation..

Rates: 6/10 - a bit disappointed




eMo - Old Town *White Coffee* -



Was nothing to do at this morning, and think of still have so many paperwork on hand... then i decided to old town for breakfast, surf net and can do my paperwork at the same time.
I was reached old town (Kepong) and as usual is hard to get parking here!! Mama mia...
then i just wait in front of old town, wish to get a VIP parking...

10 mins passed.. wooo hoo... a white myvi is going off... and da driver is a damn pretty chinese girl... *ti ta ti ta ti ta* signal on for parking... suddenly a black vios take my Q... WHAT THE... i kept horn and get down car to scold the stupid guy...

maybe i scared him off... he said sorry and drive off... WA HA HA HA.... *few customers from old town was looking here -.-"* what they will think of me? boo... whatever la..
*Pissed Off*...
FUCK! Don't Try This On Me!



Friday 7 November 2008

Thanks to Ricky...



I need to say a billion thanks to this guy..

Hahaha.. Sorry ya.. didn't get your approval then i curi curi take it from your friendster.

xD

Well, he helped me a lot from my "Bad Moment"... don't know need to say thank you how many times? but surely I'll appreciate the relationship that we had..

He also introduced a gal to me... she quite nice, is nice to talk with her.. but sorry.. i can't show her picture here xD

Actually this post is just wanna share out the helpful guy in KL xD........

eMo - I'm Down Again...

Eish... Down again?! -.-" I was think a lot on last 9....

Work Stress, Money Stress & Relationship Stress were always happened on human being...

  1. Work Stress
A lot of procedures changed... more and more requirements from office...I'm so headache on my new format of reports... don't know what to put in as i have no idea of what'll coming in next month.. SHIT!!! Targets increased again... was short quite a number of units contract... they not making noise but i can't feel they ain't happy...

2. Money Stress

Gosh... I kept spend money only -.-" even know soon i'll facing a big issue on that... so many things happened on me.. and MONEY is the one can help me to release my tensions..* at least buy something that i wanted for making me happy ma :D *
  • father was burned his hands from share... he needs help...
  • Just got a called from bank.. i'll get penalty RM7k++ on changing name of house owner.
  • Lawyer fees for divorce.... sigh... don't know how much yet...
Kill me please....

3. Relationship Stress

No need to say... u all can saw it from my previous post... i got a DAMN big shit on head...so scare of relationship... Dare not to accept again? *i dunno*

Well, Time is a best medical to cure this scar.... *cheer*

Thursday 6 November 2008

eMo - My Bad Moment

There is a lot Bad moments in my life, but let's throw those being few years SHITS away.

Here is the bad moment in 1 month ago..

1/10/08 Wednesday

She was back from her trip...
I went to her home for dinner...

The 1st foot i stepped in the house, i felt something weird on her again..She don't even give me a smile!

WHY i said AGAIN? because i found our relationship was something wrong since few months back!

We always argued just because of a guy appeared from internet...

Back to screen...
Had a quick dinner and she was so speechless to me as didn't see me for 1 week.

I was chasing her about the wedding dinner schedule and arrangement..
As usual, she always delayed the things to do.. and told me I'm not free, give me some times and I'll arrange...

Again.. We argued because this issue.. and finally she told me a sentences " I DON'T WANT TO GET MARRY WITH YOU!!!"

Oh GOD!!... my hands was shaking... my mind was totally blank...my mouth was just can't even say a word out!

After some sec... i asked her WHY?! Because of money issue? Because of u need more time to prepare? or don't tell me because of that guy?!

She answered me.. Nothing.. I'm just too stressed out on our wedding..Maybe we delay the schedule behind few months... I got nothing to say.. I just accepted this STUPID reason and used her pc for check my mail...

Oh.. Is this her trip's pictures? I found some picture numbers was randomly missing... but i didn't mention... and just back home with a lot of questions in my heart...

2/10/08 Thursday

I got to know She was ran away from home in the morning from her mum...
Shocked and Crazy... I tried to call her mobile, she switched off the phone...so I'm looked for her all around... called her frens... went where ever possible she'll go...

around 12 am++... i give up to look for her... and went back home...
Sleepless night.. I'm so worried about her.. Is it any bad thing happened on her?!

3/10/08 Friday

I went out home again to look for her at 6am++... Same result again...

4/10/08 Saturday

She still missing and i give up to find her anymore... because she ran away is just because of the wedding...

5/10/08 Sunday

After being keep calling her mobile... Finally, i managed to call in...and she straight away said..I'm on the way to look your home.

Waiting.. Waiting... and Waiting...

She arrived...
I got so many questions in my mind but i didn't mention any to her...
And only said " Please don't do this next time... Your family were worried, I know you got something to tell me.."

She Answered me " Yes, I mentioned don't wan to get marriage, this is what i want..i don't know how to tell you why... sorry.." and she walked out from home... I was totally STONED!!! Tried to call her and she don't pick up the phone... tried to look for her but just don't know where she went again..

What i can do is only... Crying, Crying and Crying.. and my brain was keep spinning why this will happened to me...

6/10/08 Monday

I was think not to work today... but i went to office at the end...
I told what happen to my buddy from skype...
after a hour...he sent me a picture...
WTF...!! her trip was with HIM!! *the guy that i mentioned*

I Shut down my pc... and ran away from office..
I called her again... she picked it up..

Me: " Why you lied to me, you was with him in the trip "

Her: " Sorry, i don't know what to say "

Me: " Tell me what you want now "

Her: " Sorry, i won't be with you anymore. I'll arrange lawyer for the divorce "

............. Sorry... i have to stop here...
I can't continue again due to my mood was back again...
So sorry to my readers...
So sorry if you don't understand what i tried to explain as above and i believed there is still a lot i missed out..my mind is blank again...

I promised someone that i should stop mention all this again... so this is the 1st and the last for this topic...

Blogger Again?!

Erh hmmm!!! Erh Hmmm!!!

Was deleted my previous blog being some years back...

But then, dunno y suddenly will think of be a blogger again -.-

Gosh... must be viewed too much blogs recently and get addicted!!!

Well, Let's me Flash Back my memories then I'll slowly post it 1 by 1.

Pls be patient...